Jan 25, 2000
I'm in love! Her name is Kylie and she's beautiful. Dark brown hair, green eyes, a nice athletic build and a smile that could warm your soul. I would do anything for her. Hell, I would kill for her if she asked me too. It was Kylie that figured out what was wrong with me. You see, I've always had fantasies about cutting people open. I think of the feel of their warm blood between my fingers as I pulled out their insides. This thought always excites me. I don't do anything about it. I mean I have never killed anyone because of these thoughts. Hell I'm just a kid with a sick way of getting off. That's not a big deal. Happens all the time. I love her and would never do anything like that to her. As long as Kylie is mine, I could keep my fantasies in check.
Jan 27, 2000
Kylie and I made love for the first time today. The whole time I couldn't stop thinking about ripping her open! What the hell is wrong with me!?!?! Here I am naked with this beautiful girl and all I can think of is how much I want my hand on her heart when it stops. It makes me sick to think of! Sick, angry, and...incredibly excited. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Jan 30, 2000
She asked me about my fantasies today. We were talking about the other day and how "into it" I got about midway through. I didn't want to tell her. I couldn't tell her. I just said it was a bondage/domination thing. How could I tell her I wanted her blood all over my body? I love her, I can't kill her. I have to prevent myself from thinking about this any more!
Feb 9, 2000
She's gone. She left me. She said that I don't really love her. That I'm it's impossible for me to feel anything. She said normal human emotions won't register with me because I'm psychopathic! Can you believe that? I love her and she say's I'm psycho! I'm so upset I can barely type this. I have to get her back. I just have to...NO MATTER WHAT.
Feb 14, 2000
She came back to me! I knew she would. It's Valentine's Day after all. The day when love conquers all. I have to keep this short. She's upstairs waiting...tied to my bed. She said she wants to make all my fantasies come true. Well OK, maybe she didn't say it with her mouth (the gag prevents that), but her eyes say it all. Her perfect green eyes...
Jan 25, 2010
Has it already been 10 years since I got rid of Kylie? Wow, first love was so long ago. She opened up so many new doors for me! Oh the memories...It's funny, I commemorate my first love and expression of my deepest desire every year. 10 Valentine's Days spent the same way. 10 women playing the part of my beloved Kylie. 10 funerals to mourn the loss of first love. But it is all worth it. Worth having the connection to my Kylie again.
Feb 14, 2010
Her name was Amber and she was beautiful. Brown hair, athletic build, and her eyes..........perfect green eyes.